The majority of my readers stop by my blog each week because they know I’m always sharing with you things I’ve been learning as I continue my online journey.
I had the honor of highlighting last week the lovely Annie Andre. She was my guest blogger last Monday and she shared her video editing talents with us all. She was a huge hit I might add.
Luckily for me, she contacted me on Wednesday asking if I would cast a vote her way for a contest she had just entered. I was more than happy to not only vote for her but help her get even more so she was again the center of attention in my Thursday post. By the way, if you haven’t voted for her would you be so kind to just “like” her blog. That’s all you have to do.
Had Annie not contacted me, in all honestly, I was seriously considering missing my first post ever here on my blog.
Life Got In The Way
I have not been myself for a week now. I’ve done my best to keep my mind occupied but I have waves of sadness that just hit me head on.
I lost a dear friend of mine a week ago today. Tony lost his battle with cancer, a disease most of you know I’ve had in my life since I was barely out of diapers.
Cancer doesn’t care who it affects. It doesn’t care that Tony had so much more living to do, that he has two boys that need their Dad, a loving wife of almost 30 years, a family who loved him dearly, friends who thought the world of him and a faith you could not shake.
Life isn’t fair sometimes and I have learned to not obsess over things I have no control over. But death still gets to me.
The Strong One
My Dad always use to call me the strong one. Growing up with that term I thought it meant that I had to be strong for everyone all the time. My Dad never explained to me what he really meant. Like most kids, I just assumed. It wasn’t until about 20 years ago that I confronted him about that.
He had meant that I’m strong willed, I take things on head first. I’m a go getter, I always land on my feet, I’m always up for whatever someone throws at me. I took it to mean that I had to hide my emotions so I did.
When my Dad passed away nine years ago, the flood gates just opened up. I honestly can’t explain it. I cry over everything now, even commercials and especially sad videos. You can only imagine what the passing of a loved one does to me. I’m a sap!
Tony is the third person I’ve lost in my life since the passing of my Dad. I’ll just be honest with you, it never gets easy.
I’m not going to beat myself up over not staying focused, for not meeting the goals I had set for myself this month, for falling down on what I wanted to accomplish in this 100 day biz challenge I’m a part of and for not being myself in my comments I’ve left on your blogs.
It’s okay because life does get in the way. People pass away unexpectedly, things happen in our personal lives that are going to get in the way of our business goals no matter how hard we try to stay on course.
Life Goes On
We have to live our lives without some of the people we love now. I am going to do my very best to concentrate on what I do have and not dwell on what I don’t.
I hope to be back to myself and able to share with you more helpful tips that you can use to get you further along in your business in my post on Thursday.
I just want to thank you all for your continued support and faithful readership. It means the world to me and I hope to not let you down as I struggle to get through this.
And I will because I do have so many wonderful friends and family members that are helping me understand that it’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to not be on top of my game. It’s okay to let my emotions get the better of me. It’s okay to grieve for Tony as long as I need to.
We all have to deal with life, and it’s just going to get in the way at times.
I would just like to end this post by reminding you all to let those around you know how much they mean to you because life happens and sometimes it’s not how we planned. Sometimes those we love are taken unexpectedly and I prefer never having any unspoken words between us or them not knowing just how very special they truly were. ♥